May 6, it's exactly 12 in the morning.. and this day was supposed to be the happiest day in my life 'coz it's my birthday... but why am I feeling like this... I feel so all alone... It's like nobody cares for me...
Last year, all of my virtual friends even those I just knew in game greeted me.. The world chat was flooded with greetings and it really felt so good knowing that I have a lot of friends who care and love me... Year passed, and now it's my birthday again... Those friends I've known for a year or so in game doesn't even bother to greet me...There's only one person who sincerely (i hope so!..^_^) greeted me in world chat a while ago and we just became close just recently....
Maybe, I had to face the reality now that all of my so called friends... they are all gone!... Nobody cares for me na.... Maybe this is now my "karma" 'coz I've been so unfair to others...I had a lot of hang ups the past few days... I had a lot of issues...I had a lot of insecurities...I don't deserve to be happy now because of all the bad things I've done before...
I miss the old days... I miss the old me... without angst... without insecurities... If only I could turn back time... but it's too late... I've lost my friends... All I have is myself now... I'm all alone and that's the fact...And it's all because of me.. this is all my fault... No one else to blame...:'(
I know it's too late, but I still want to say sorry to all of you, especially to all of my close friends in game... Sorry if I'm no longer the same person you used to know.... Sorry if I disappoint you with my hostile attitude...Sorry if I've caused you pain... For all the bad things I've done, I am really sorry! I hope you find forgiveness in your heart...Thank's for being a good friend to me.. Thank's for all the memories... I won't forget you.. T_T
SAD BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :(
