NOBODY CARES ANYMORE!

May 6, it's exactly 12 in the morning.. and this day was supposed to be the happiest day in my life 'coz it's my birthday... but why am I feeling like this... I feel so all alone... It's like nobody cares for me... 

Last year, all of my virtual friends even those I just knew in game greeted me.. The world chat was flooded with greetings and it really felt so good knowing that I have a lot of friends who care and love me... Year passed, and now it's my birthday again... Those friends I've known for a year or so in game doesn't even bother to greet me...There's only one person who sincerely (i hope so!..^_^) greeted me in world chat a while ago and we just became close just recently.... 

Maybe, I had to face the reality now that all of my so called friends... they are all gone!... Nobody cares for me na.... Maybe this is now my "karma" 'coz I've been so unfair to others...I had a lot of hang ups the past few days... I had a lot of issues...I had a lot of insecurities...I don't deserve to be happy now because of all the bad things I've done before...

I miss the old days... I miss the old me... without angst... without insecurities... If only I could turn back time... but it's too late... I've lost my friends... All I have is myself now... I'm all alone and that's the fact...And it's all because of me.. this is all my fault... No one else to blame...:'(

I know it's too late, but I still want to say sorry to all of you, especially to all of my close friends in game... Sorry if I'm no longer the same person you used to know.... Sorry if I disappoint you with my hostile attitude...Sorry if I've caused you pain... For all the bad things I've done, I am really sorry! I hope you find forgiveness in your heart...Thank's for being a good friend to me.. Thank's for all the memories... I won't forget you.. T_T

SAD BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :(

LETTING GO!

March 15, 3pm...alone in my room...staring at my phone...thinking of him and waiting for his text....

It's been six months or so when N pmed me and congratulate me when I leveled up in an online game we're both playing.... That was the time na nag usap uli kami after our break up....I didn't know na it was him pala coz he's using a new char so I just replied "ty" 'coz I taught it was just a stranger who just want to congratulate me ... Then he replied and said na it was him nga.... I was surprised by that act 'coz i know I've seriously hurt him with our break up....I was with my boyfriend D that time so we just had a small talk... and after that day we constantly chat when he is online and sometimes we text each other....

One day, me and my boyfriend D broke up... I was so depressed that time and I need someone to talk to.... I texted N, and asked him what he doesn't like about me when we're still together.... he said, he doesn't like it when I ignore him every time i was upset... he said pa nga na "naiinis ako sa sarili ko sa kakaisip kung anu nagawa ko".... Unfortunately, that's also the reason why me and D broke up... I ignore and avoid him for a week without telling him what's wrong.... But that was me, I prefer to shut up every time I'm upset or not in the mood... I believe kc na it's better tumahimik na lang kesa may masabi na mali at baka pag sisihan ko pa especially when I'm mad... Less talk less mistake! And besides, aq rin naman una namamansin after maging ok na ko.... But the problem with D was, sumobra ata ako pero  nadagdagan din kc mga ginawa nyang mali eh pero di nya maisip un.... so tumagal un pag ignore ko sa kanya and sad to say he found another girl and that's another story need not to tackle...lols! After hearing  the side of my ex's and friends about my attitude, i try to change it....

Days passed, N and I became close again.... we always text each other.... there are times na when we text as if it's like when we're still together.... and I admit, I'm falling in love with him again but I didn't know if the feeling is mutual 'coz I don't understand him... he's being sweet and caring the past few days.... then he confess pa nga na nag selos sya nung may nag shout ng "i love you"  para sa akin dun sa online game na we used to play.... I don't know if I'm just assuming or what....then one time, when we we're chatting, I asked him "pero mahal mo?" then he said, "nasa puso parin kita".... demn! what does he mean? But, what's really confusing was, every time na bibiruin ko sya about sa ganung topic, he always say na he's afraid to fall in love again....grabe gulo nya! bakit di na lang nya sabihin anu talaga nararamdaman nya ....hindi ung nag papaasa sya! I admit I've hurt him so much in the past kaya siguro natatakot na sya magmahal uli....but can't he give me another chance....can't we start all over again? And besides di lang naman sya ung nasaktan noon, I was hurt too.... 

I  love you....pero nakakapagod ng mag hintay.... nakakapagod ng umasa sa wala.... I've been hoping and praying na we can had our second chance but I guess you we're scared enough to fight for what you really feels...'coz if you really care for me, you'll make an effort to make things work out instead of leaving me unhappy and confused...It's hard to wait around for someone like you who's afraid to try to meet me half way.... Sometimes I wish I never talked to you again....sana di na lang tayo naging close uli ...sana di na lang uli ako na fall... sana....sana! 'Coz you can't imagine the pain I am going through right now...If only I could turn back time but there are facts in our lives that we can never change...

So I guess, it's time to let go of the feelings I had for you...Despite everything that I have felt for you, I find it best to end it....I need some time to find the real me and experience what it's like to live independently...I am really sorry for the pain I've caused you in our break up before..You really are a special person, and i wish you all the happiness in your future, and If the time comes and you're ready to fall in love again, I really hope you find a girl that deserves someone special like you.. Thank you for all the memories...

WE'RE BETTER OFF THIS WAY!! GOODBYE!! </3

PALAWAN ESCAPADE: DAY3

DAY 3:
Feb, 22... It's already five o'clock in the morning... need to get up and prepare for our day 3 Palawan adventure... but I'm still sleepy and sobrang sakit ng katawan qoh kaka swim kahapon plus ung sunburn ang hapdi....eeeew! But I have to and I need to, no choice...ahaha... so rise and shine! I took a bath and had my continental breakfast, then we're off to the service van for our city tour! xD

First stop, Iwahig Prison and Penal Farm! yup.... it's a prison colony with a low security work farm. Over a thousand prisoners live and work around a central village square. Not to mention those prisoners who have been freed but still choose to stay and live in Iwahig  because of the living conditions. Prisoners are even welcome to bring their wives and children to stay with them... We took some pictures and bought some souvenirs that the prisoners made...Then we headed to our next stop...

 

Next stop, Crocodile Farm and Nature Park, which serves as the sanctuary of the Philippine crocodile that is endemic in our country.. When you get inside the main hall of the main building you'll see the skeleton of a huge sea water crocodile that is encased in a glass chest... And on the wall beside it hangs the skin of the said crocodile... A skeleton of a Sperm Whale is also displayed near the crocodile encasing... A few meters from the main hall, is the Hatchling House where crocodiles are taking cared...But a visit to crocodile farm is not limited to crocodile farming.. You can also check out other rare animals like the Nicobar pigeon, bearcat, the serpent eagle, parrots, talking myna and among others.

Then we went to the Baker's Hill... a bakeshop with a kid-friendly establishment .. When you get inside the complex you will see some funny fiber-glass statues, a mini zoo showcasing Palawan fauna, mini play ground and an extensive cactus and bonsai garden and nursery...

We then dropped by to the ranch of the late Cong. Ramon Mitra which is on the top of the hill and provided by a lovely view of Honda Bay...

 It's already 1PM, when we had our quick lunch at Badjao Seafront Restaurant... The resto was built on the top of a mangrove habitat, features a nice view of the sea with its large open windows...

Then, we headed back to the hotel... to packed our things 'coz sad to say this ends our Palawan Adventure!! :'( ... Oh well, there's a saying nga all's well that ends well.... there's some other time pa naman eh.. hehe.. Ibang adventure naman and ibang place... And I'm looking forward for another out of town tour...xD

We arrived in Manila around five in the afternoon...and had a three or four hour ride from the airport to our house... Home at last! I so missed my bed... hehe....It was so tiring but it was, indeed a great tour!

GOODBYE PALAWAN!!! ^_^

PALAWAN ESCAPADE: DAY 2

DAY 2:

Feb 21, woke up at 5 in the morning...we start preparing for our 2nd day Palawan adventure.... had our first breakfast at the roof top of the hotel.... ordered tosilog and a cup of coffee for my breakfast... After that, we went back to our room, we still have more minutes before the call time...

"Knock... knock..." It's 6am, our tour guide was knocking in our room now... the service van is waiting downstairs.... yay! let's start the day now...xD

First stop... snorkeling and fish feeding at Honda Bay .... After a one hour ride, we reached the bay and from there we had our boat ride off to the island were we can do the snorkeling and fish feeding.... This time, gonna  wear my two-piece na...hahaha....(gudluck sakin) After wearing all the necessary snorkeling gear and a life vest, I'm ready to dive now... let's do this.. ahaha... A man approach us, he will assist us in our snorkeling... according to him we have to swim for about 5 meters to be in the snorkeling spot kung saan andun un mga corals.... but for those who can't swim, hihilahin na lang ng rope ng nag aassist.... I was about to do it na, but when i went down the water, sobrang lalim pala.... i know how to swim pero pag sobrang lalim na takot na aq.... ahahaha... and not to mention ung snorkeling gear na suot qoh... lalong nakaka suffocate, ang hirap huminga... so I decided not to go...:( and since my nephew was too young to do the snorkeling we just feed the fish na lang while my sister and her husband do the snorkeling that took about an hour....

            

Next stop, island hopping.....We headed first to the snake island where in we're going to stay until after lunch.... It's already nine in the morning when we have reached the snake island... weeee... time to swim... love it.... hehe! Then had our picnic lunch there..(super sarap ng food!) and swim.... swim... swim....again and again....I really love the beach.... lols! By 2pm , we had our boat ride and headed to the Pandan Island... and we swim `til the sundown...

After having an awesome day by the beach.. we went back to the hotel...had some rest for an hour or two...By seven, we went out and had our dinner at Ka Lui's resto... yummy food and great ambiance!...The very first resto i've been wherein you were able to remove your shoes or slippers... yup! you read it right, we're bare footing... as in sobrang polish ng floor hanggang comfort room... I so love the place!

Back to the hotel...It have been a very busy day for us...we're off to bed...good night! ^_^

OUCH.... SUNBURN ALL OVER MY BACK :'(

PALAWAN ESCAPADE: DAY 1

DAY 1:
Feb. 20, 2011... 7am departure time.... we reached terminal 3 around 6am in the morning.... still have 1 hour to wait for the plane to arrive...While waiting, we spotted Derek Ramsey and I took a picture of him with my brother in-law... hehe... Oh, btw.... I'm with my sister, her husband and my nephew in this Palawan tour....
It's 7am already... "ding.. dong... the flight ...blah..blah..blah...will be delayed"..... demn!!! have to wait for a few more minutes....7:30 and now the plane arrived, atlast.... now heading to our plane... seat number 33...hehe....now, fasten your seat belt and we'll fly high!!!! whoa! it's my first time actually....ahahaha....di naman pala scary... sarap ng feeling...ahaha....ganda ng view..... ganda ng clouds...weeeee!!

9am  Puerto Princesa Airport arrival.... There's a white service van that picked up us in the airport and now we're heading to the Liberty Park Hotel kung saan kami mag stay for 3 days hehe... According to our tour guide, when we reached the hotel, we just have to leave our things there 'coz we are about to begin our Palawan adventure right away!!!...(may lakad ata tour guide namin, kaka baba lang ng plane, tour agad!! @_@)....

First stop, Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park .... it's a 2 hour ride from the hotel and a 30 minutes boat ride to reach the said place.... It's already 12 noon when reached the island wherein we have to ride on a boat that will bring us to the park... It's lunch time so we stop over the island first and have our picnic lunch...After ng isang nakakabusog na lunch we ride on a boat and headed to the park....

Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park.... The longest navigable underground river.. It's main attraction is an 8.2 kilometer that winds to a spectacular cave...At the mouth of the cave, a clear lagoon is framed by ancient trees growing right to the water edge's... Monkeys, large monitor lizards and squirrels find their niche on the beach near the cave.. Once inside the cave, you'll see different stone formation.... From a vegetable stone formation to a Holy Family stone formation..You just need to widen your imagination to figure out what the stone formation is... Too bad, konting pic lang ma share ko kze naiwan sa hotel un isang cam, digicam un dala namin... and sobrang dilim sa loob... and bawal pa may flash ang cam... so di namin na picturan un magagandang stone formation kc sa pinaka loob na un and sobrang dilim...:'( But, enwei... indeed it's an awesome place for you to see... ^_^

 After the amazing tour in subterranean river park, we had our early dinner at Balinsasayaw resto... a very nice resto and yummy food.. ^_^

After that, we went back to the hotel... need to rest na para sa aming 2nd day Palawan tour.. Call time 6am!?!?! whoa!!!! pero it's ok... sobrang nakakapagod ang day 1 but we all had a great day and besides wala pa kong tulog since kagabi...for sure bagsak ako sa kama nito...ahahaha... so that's end our Day 1 adventure...xD

LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR DAY 2 PALAWAN ADVENTURE!!!